{"id":799,"date":"2016-04-09T13:31:02","date_gmt":"2016-04-09T20:31:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/briancebuhl.com\/?p=799"},"modified":"2016-04-09T13:31:02","modified_gmt":"2016-04-09T20:31:02","slug":"too-much-to-do-paralysis","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/briancebuhl.com\/?p=799","title":{"rendered":"Too Much To Do Paralysis"},"content":{"rendered":"

I’ve just finished playing with the Rancho Cordova River City Concert Band at an event dedicated to supporting veterans. \u00a0We passed the hat to raise money to go to Semper Fi. \u00a0We played with the River City Choir. \u00a0There weren’t many people in the\u00a0audience, but the performance went very well!<\/p>\n

Now I’m home, trying to figure out what to do. \u00a0I’ve written before how critical it is that I manage my time well, because I just don’t seem to have enough of it to go around. \u00a0This afternoon is one of those rare times when I don’t have anything specifically planned. \u00a0I can choose to do what I want. \u00a0So what do I choose?<\/p>\n

It’s times like this that I face a kind of strange paralysis. \u00a0I can choose to do just about anything, but I often wind up choosing to do pretty much nothing. \u00a0It’s all because there is so much that my mind tells me that I\u00a0should<\/em> do.<\/p>\n

Here’s a list of things I feel like I\u00a0should<\/em> do, in no particular order:<\/p>\n

    \n
  1. Edit\u00a0The Repossessed Ghost<\/em><\/li>\n
  2. Work on some new story<\/li>\n
  3. Work on programming projects for work<\/li>\n
  4. Work on a programming project for fun<\/li>\n
  5. Clean the garage<\/li>\n
  6. Go for a long walk, even if it is raining<\/li>\n
  7. Work on the laundry<\/li>\n
  8. Finish watching Season 2 of Daredevil<\/li>\n
  9. Play a game<\/li>\n
  10. Please, just do something\u00a0other than sitting around, watching\u00a0YouTube<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n

    So many times, I wind up sitting in front of my computer,\u00a0doing the thing I least want to do. \u00a0It feels like I’m letting myself down, and wasting what little time I have.<\/p>\n

    I know why this happens. \u00a0I’m legitimately tired, and I need to do something mindless for awhile.<\/p>\n

    Every week I maintain a packed schedule full of long hours. \u00a0Many of those hours are spent dealing with\u00a0and interacting with people. \u00a0I’m not antisocial, but that type of interaction\u00a0wears on me. \u00a0I need a break sometimes. \u00a0I need to do something mindless for awhile, so that I can recharge.<\/p>\n

    I drive myself hard all week. \u00a0When I reach a break in my schedule, the urge to keep pushing is strong, but not as strong as the need to just sit and catch my breath.<\/p>\n

    Well, those are the excuses, anyway. \u00a0I’m not the only one that goes through this. \u00a0I’m human, just like everyone else. \u00a0Today, I’m settling the paralysis by writing about it. \u00a0Examining it. \u00a0Sharing it.<\/p>\n

    Maybe I’ll find something else to do that isn’t on the list.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

    I’ve just finished playing with the Rancho Cordova River City Concert Band at an event dedicated to supporting veterans. \u00a0We passed the hat to raise money to go to Semper Fi. \u00a0We played with the River City Choir. \u00a0There weren’t many people in the\u00a0audience, but the performance went very well! Now I’m home, trying to […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-799","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-general"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/briancebuhl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/799","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/briancebuhl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/briancebuhl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/briancebuhl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/briancebuhl.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=799"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/briancebuhl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/799\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":800,"href":"https:\/\/briancebuhl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/799\/revisions\/800"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/briancebuhl.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=799"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/briancebuhl.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=799"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/briancebuhl.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=799"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}