07/7/23

Celebrations!

Tonight, let’s talk about celebrations, both from literary and literal perspectives. Because this month marks 10 years of running this blog, I’ll start with ways I’m celebrating in real life, then move into how celebrations can flavor world building.

I’m celebrating this blog this month by writing an entry every month, using topics provided by people I asked on Twitter and Facebook. How do I celebrate 10 years of maintaining this open journal which chronicles my thoughts and feelings on the road to becoming an author? By giving myself more work!

“Brian, you’ve done such a good job that I’m going to make you write an essay every night for 31 days. Yes, you have to.”

It is a way I celebrate, though. I enjoy this. Writing both thrills and calms me, even when the writing is this sort of free and direct speech into a blog. I prefer writing fiction and crafting interesting narratives, but blogging has its charms.

Last weekend, at Baycon 2023, the entire convention felt like a celebration of getting The Repossessed Ghost out into the world. The official release is still a few days away, but people at the convention were able to get the book ahead of everyone else, even those that pre-ordered. There were so many people at the convention that I’ve known over the years that have genuinely supported me and my writing, and most of them bought my book and had me sign it. I defaced their books with my signature and sincere appreciation. Also, complete strangers bought my book and also had me sign it. The whole weekend felt like an out of body experience, where this guy that looks and talks like me was having the time of his life. Baycon 2023 helped me celebrate the release of my book, and it was hard to come back to the “real world” after that.

Celebrations are a part of our culture, both in society and in our family groups. Christmas from family to family looks different. So does Thanksgiving, and Halloween, and the various Hallmark-invented holidays that American culture both celebrates and endures. My family (as in me, Melissa, Bryanna, and Christopher) tends to have more subdued holiday celebrations.

We’re just now on the other side of the celebration of the 4th of July. My family used to go to the mall near Sunrise, where we’d sit on the grass and watch the fireworks show. Sometimes we’d buy fireworks to light up at home, but most years we left the pyrotechnics for others. This year, the kids were off on their own, celebrating in their own ways, while Melissa and I turned on the sprinklers and hoped our pyromaniac neighbors would fail in their efforts to burn down our home. We kept thinking of Melissa’s Dad, that served several tours in Vietnam, and how the loud fireworks were terrible for him.

Our real-world experiences of celebrations can inform our writing, and can make our worlds and our characters more realistic and relatable.

Let’s start with world building. Societies share celebrations. If you’re fictional society doesn’t have regular celebrations or rituals, you’re missing out. With more fantastical settings, the changing of the seasons often have significance, whether its as mundane as a marking of when farming can happen, or whether its something supernatural, such as Death Magic works best in Winter. How did your fictional society rise up? Is there a battle that they commemorate, perhaps by setting fire to an effigy of the dead god that forsook them?

I’ve talked in the past about world building, and how I think authors can get distracted by it and do way more than they need to. When dealing with the setting, you could do worse than having some kind of culturally significant celebration take place when things are happening in your story. Diehard did this and changed what it means to be a Christmas movie. In the cyberpunk novel I’m working on, the company my protagonist works for will definitely have some kind of celebration over the destruction of one of the rival companies, to promote brand loyalty and encourage the workers to stay the course.

Celebrations in stories can enhance the setting, but it can also be part of the plot.

Additionally, how your characters react to celebrations can speak volumes about who they are, and make them more interesting. Does your fearless vigilante eschew holiday festivities because they were an orphan growing up, and they cannot bring themselves to open up during that time because of the pain and trauma they continue to carry with them? Or, maybe your fearless vigilante goes overboard with holiday festivities specifically because they were an orphan, and burying their found family in gifts and food is their awkward way of showing their love and appreciation.

When writing about celebrations to create interesting worlds and characters, we can draw from our experiences and make our writing authentic. This is one of those places where “write what you know” can be used appropriately. By that I mean, you can reach into your own experiences, knowing what it feels like to wake up on Christmas morning, excited to check under the tree for presents you were hoping for. You can impart those same feelings onto your fictional celebrations, or fill your characters with the same excitement and anticipation. Just remember that “write what you know” should not be taken literally.

It’s been 10 years of blogging here. Thank you for stopping by to visit, and thank you for helping me celebrate!

07/6/23

Hydration!

Okay, it’s July 6th, so let’s talk about hydration!

I’m… not the person you should listen to about hydration.

Whatever I say here is not medical advice. You should check with your doctor. I’m a writer, which means I have opinions on a lot of different topics, but nothing I have to say about this subject should be taken seriously.

Mostly, I think you should drink when you’re thirsty, and if you’re not thirsty, don’t force it.

I have seen people walking around with a barrel of water, chugging it down like they miss their Atlantean home, and that’s not for me. Maybe it’s good for them? I don’t feel like it’s good for me.

This is rich coming from the guy that gets kidney stones and has high blood pressure, I know, but I don’t think my medical problems have anything to do with me thinking it’s a bad idea to overdo it on the hydration.

Do you want to know how I can tell if I’ve had enough fluid? I look at the color of my pee. If it’s bright yellow or orange, and I’m not taking any drugs that would make it so, I probably haven’t had enough to drink. If it’s closer to clear, I’m doing fine.

Also, I listen to my body. Or at least I try to. I have been known to get distracted, ignore my thirst, and have problems, like kidney stones.

Melissa has lived with me long enough that she knows I can get absorbed in one of my projects or a game and ignore my thirst. She is always trying to get me to drink, and I try to keep her happy.

If you want to drink 8 liters of water a day, go for it, i suppose. Just try to avoid sever hyponatremia. Drink too much water and it will eventually mess up your brain, put you in a coma, and kill you. You have to drink a LOT of water to do that, but it’s happened. On live radio, even.

I probably should drink a little more water than I do. I just prefer my water have a little something in it. Like flavor. Or sometimes coffee. But not caffeine, still.

I think that’s all I have to say about hydration. Maybe hydration will come up in a future story? I don’t know. This was one of the first topics suggested for this month, and I’ve covered it about as well as I’m going to cover it.

In other news, I have a bunch of books that need to go out to pre-orders. I have the list of names, and I can customize them. There is a little bit of bad news, though.

Many people ordered hardback, which is amazing and awesome and I love you for it, but we don’t have enough of the hardbacks to go out this run to cover all the orders. They’re still going to get customized and sent out, but it’ll be about 2 weeks before they’re printed and available. We have enough of the trade paperbacks, though, so those will go out very soon.

The official release is next week, on July 12th. I’ll have more to say about that soon, as well!

07/5/23

All The Things We’ll Talk About This Month

Today was the first day back to work after one of the best weekends of my life, so I’m going to make it easy on myself and use today as a day of planning for the rest of the month.

Like so many Octobers, I want to create a blog post every day this month. I stumbled a little bit out the gate, but like I said before, these rules are arbitrary and I’m holding to the spirit of them. So far, so good.

I asked on Twitter and Facebook what I should talk about this month, and here is the list of topics compiled from your suggestions. I’m not sure how many are winners, but I’ll make the most of it and we’ll have a good time.

Let’s see if I can order these by day number, including the days that have already passed:

  1. Baycon 2023 Day 1, Blog Year 10
  2. Baycon 2023 Day 2
  3. Baycon 2023 Day 3 – The Brain Weasels
  4. Baycon 2023 Day 4 — Time To Go Home
  5. All The Things We’ll Talk About This Month
  6. Hydration
  7. Celebrations
  8. The 10 Year Recap
  9. Gaming as Writing Fuel
  10. Climate and Climate Change
  11. Weather and Seasons — Setting the Mood
  12. The Release of The Repossessed Ghost
  13. Dragons!
  14. The Pros and Cons of Different Writing Communities
  15. Pushing Through Writing Struggles
  16. The Joys of Semicolons
  17. Favorite Whiskeys
  18. Shoes
  19. Romeo and Juliet
  20. The Byzantine-Sasanian War of 620-628 AD
  21. Mashed Potatoes
  22. State of The Brian — 2023
  23. The Rise of Queer Protagonists in Genre Fiction
  24. The Most Common Questions I am Asked
  25. Monty Python
  26. Water Dragon Publishing
  27. Writing in Someone Else’s Sandbox
  28. Sequels!
  29. The Repossessed Ghost Readings!
  30. My Story Ideas — 2023 Edition
  31. The Games We Play

That’s the list. I may move things around, and I may call an audible and do something not in the list and rearrange things. This is sort of how I create my outlines before a draft. It’s a plan set in clay, not in stone, and if I see a better way, I’ll do that.

07/4/23

Baycon 2023 Day 4 — Time to Go Home

Melissa and I just got home. We’ve unloaded the car, but we haven’t really unpacked. That might be a task put off to tomorrow.

What can I say about the final day of Baycon?

I had such a good time the whole weekend. I attended my final panel, “The Greatest Writing Advice I’ve Ever Received” and it may have been the best panel I’ve ever been a part of. It was certainly the most attended.

After that, I spent most of the time in the dealer room, and I wasn’t at the Water Dragon table nearly as much as I was at the Small Publishing in a Big Universe podcast table. I got to interview several people for the podcast. While I was there, a few people I met last night came buy with freshly purchased books and had me sign them. That’s never going to get old.

All good things must come to an end, though. I attended the closing ceremonies, then Melissa and I helped put away all the Water Dragon stuff and pack it to the car. Once that was done, all of the Water Dragon folk (me included) went to the patio outside the bar and had one more drink before hitting the road. We had a great visit.

It got late while we were driving home, and we wound up seeing more fireworks than I expected. At several points on the freeway, the skies surrounding us were on fire. Traffic was a bit thick when we dropped of Mike at his place, but we didn’t have a problem getting back on the freeway, and we continued to drive beneath multicolored sparks and light blossoms.

Honestly, after the weekend I just experienced, it felt like the whole world was celebrating with me.

We’re home, now. Tomorrow, it’s back to the usual routine. It’s not quite 11PM, and it sounds like the pyromaniac neighbors might be starting to wind down, too. Maybe they heard the news about the house fire just a few blocks away. Unlikely, but it’s a possibility. I turned on all the sprinklers just in case our luck turned bad tonight.

I feel inspired, and I’m looking forward to my next opportunity to write. I haven’t felt this excited to get back to writing in a long time.

This was a good trip.

07/3/23

Baycon 2023 Day 3 – The Brain Weasels

We’re rapidly approaching midnight, so I need to get this finished before I’m stuck writing two posts tomorrow.

Today was another excellent day. I was on two panels, both of which went fairly well. I noticed while sitting on the panel, listening to other panelists speaking, my imposter’s syndrome reared up. The voice in my head said “You shouldn’t be up here” so loud it seemed the people in the audience should have heard it.

Several times I walked through the halls of the hotel alone, and the brain weasels were there, trying to bring me down. “You’ve been too happy for too long, Brian. You should be sad again. It’s what you deserve.”

I’m not sure where it comes from. I pushed it down and focused on the happy things. All weekend, I have visited with friends and people I admire, and they have all been so supportive that I’m not sure what to do with the positive emotions.

My excellent friend Mike Baltar bought my book this weekend and read it entirely. He told me it was a page turner, and he was excited to get to the end. It’s everything I want and hope to hear, and I thanked him with as much grace as I could while a part of me wanted to reject the praise, the way someone’s body might try to reject a transplanted organ.

Nothing at this convention has been bad, for me. All of my internal drama is internal, and I don’t know why I do this to myself.

I’m winding down now, getting ready to go to sleep. There’s one more day, and one more panel for me to attend, and it’s one I’m looking forward to as it is The Greatest Writing Advice I’ve Ever Received. I think that one is going to be a lot of fun.

Tomorrow, Melissa and I will need to return to home and all of our normality. There’s been so many good and happy events this weekend, I should have plenty of fuel to fight the brain weasels for a long while.

07/3/23

Baycon 2023 Day 2

Woops! I didn’t get this posted yesterday. Has my post-a-day challenge for July already failed?

Not really. I’ll post this one now, and another later today. Life happens, and it’s important we forgive ourselves, especially when the rules we made up for ourselves are arbitrary.

Besides, the main reason I didn’t post yesterday was because the day was exceptionally full, and when we got back to my room last night, I immediately went to sleep. Baycon Day 2 was a full and happy day.

The biggest highlight of the day was in the evening, when Melissa and I took several wonderful people to dinner. Once every convention, I try to take a group out and treat them, so it can just be a time of low stress, good food, and happy conversation. Last night was no exception. It was a fabulous time.

I attended a panel earlier in the morning on How to Make Believable Characters, which was interesting and engaging. I found myself nodding my head a lot, agreeing with what was being said.

I participated on one panel a little later, on Noir in Science Fiction and Fantasy. When putting the program together, I’m not sure they knew my particular set of qualifications for that panel, since Spin City isn’t out or broadly known, but based on the experience of writing that novel, and because that particular combination of noir and SciFi is my catnip, I had a couple of things I could say on the subject. I think the panel went well. Attendance was light, so it was low stress and low stakes, which is fine by me.

In the evening, I briefly attended Rebecca Inch-Partridge’s party for the release of her book, Escaping the Dashia. Years ago, when Rebecca and I were in a writing group together, I read early versions of that book at the same time that group was reading early versions of The Repossessed Ghost. It’s great to see both books taking physical form and going out into the world.

Melissa and I went to Michael Gallowglas’s poetry slam, but I only could stay briefly. The poetry was excellent, and I wanted to stay for more, but my body simply said No, so I listened to it. We came back to the room and I immediately passed out.

All in all, I would say Day 2 was an excellent day. Highly recommend it. Would do it again.

07/1/23

Baycon 2023 Day 1, Blog Year 10

When I started this blog, it was after talking with Jim Doty. He basically gave me a tough-love speech, which amounted to, “If you want to be a writer, don’t whine about it. Do the things that writers do.”

It’s exactly what I needed to hear. After talking with him, I came home, set up this blog, and I’ve been keeping at it for the last 10 years. To celebrate, I’m going to try and write a blog post every day of July.

I’m currently at Baycon 2023 in Santa Clara, so these first 4 days of July, I’m going to talk about that.

Today is an especially powerful day, because today represents the realization of a dream, and a whole lot of firsts.

Today is the first time I received a convention badge that marked me as a guest of the convention.

Today is the first time I’ve ever been on a panel.

Today is the first time I’ve ever done a reading at a convention.

Today is the first time I’ve been able to hold a novel, written by me, with my name on the cover. By the way, the book is one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever seen.

Today is the first day I’ve ever had a book signing. To my amazement, several people visited me with books freshly purchased from the dealer’s room, just for me to sign them. Several of these people were strangers to me.

Today is the first day I’ve ever signed a book that bore my name on the cover and the spine.

That is so many firsts!

Frequently, I felt like I was having an out-of-body experience. I saw myself doing all of these things, living the dream, and it felt like someone else. It felt like I could wake up any moment and have to go back to work.

Imposter Syndrome plagued me several times today, but I managed it relatively well. I saw this more as a celebration of a book I wrote and still happened to love, and that made it easier to be in the moment.

So many friends and acquaintances I’ve made over the years are here. These are people that I have met and grown to know at these conventions. They seem truly happy for me.

In a few minutes, I’m going to go see Michael, and I think we’re going to share some Scotch. It should be safe. I didn’t have to take any hypertension medicine today, and if I have to take some, the pharmacist said it’s safe for me to imbibe a little.

It’s hard for me to describe how blessed I feel right now. There is a short unboxing video that I need to get off of Melissa’s phone and post here. It might show, to some degree, how the joy of the day is overwhelming.

I have more I could say, but I think I’ll close this tonight with the acknowledgements that I wrote in The Repossessed Ghost.

This has been a long time coming. When I started this novel, Obama wasn’t that far into his second term. Most people had cell phones, but they were not quite as ubiquitous as they are today. The world has changed so much that I considered writing a prologue just to establish when this story takes place.

It’s been a long time, and I have a lot of people to thank for helping me see this through. Michael Todd Gallowglas, for example, has always believed in me, even when I had trouble believing in myself. Richard S. Crawford, Andrea Stewart, and several other writers I’ve worked with in critique groups, helped me shape this story into what it is today.

Most especially, I must thank Jennifer L. Carson. She saw something in this story that no one else did, when the novel was still rough and surly. She would not allow me to leave this story to rot in a drawer. Jennifer helped me see a dream come true.

Finally, I need to thank my family, Melissa, Bryanna, and Christopher, for helping me stay grounded and sane.

06/20/23

Advance Reader Copies Available Now!

I’m still struggling with the hypertension medicine side effects. Pepto-Bismol is handling one of the worst ones, but I’m still tired most of the time. I laid down yesterday afternoon for a short nap and wound up sleeping until this morning. I need to get that under control because I can’t afford to lose so many days.

Right before I went for the nap, I opened an email from Water Dragon which had links! Digital advance reader copies (ARCs) are available! I’ve never been at this stage of a book before!

What is an ARC? It’s a near-finished version of the book, meant to go out ahead of the release so that some readers can get a taste of it and post reviews. They’re generally sent to magazines and people of influence in the publishing world to further drum up interest and get some buzz started.

Water Dragon already has a list of magazines and organizations to send ARCs to, so the number of copies I have available are basically extra.

I’ve handed out the link for the ARC to two people today, and I have more available. I’m looking for people that are interested in reading it, writing a review, and if they really liked it, help spread the word about it.

And to be clear, I want fair and honest reviews. Don’t write a glowing review if it wasn’t your cup of tea. If you hate it, put that in your review. It really is okay.

Where to write a review? Amazon is probably the best place.

If you’re interested in an ARC for The Repossessed Ghost, let me know!

It’s hard to put into words just how exciting this is for me.

06/18/23

I Watched The Flash Yesterday

I live on The Internet, which means when popular movies come out, I need to see them as soon as possible in order to avoid spoilers. That’s just life, now. I was going to see it Thursday night, but we had other plans, and Friday wasn’t great, either. So I went to a Saturday matinee.

Before I get into The Flash, I’ll just say Happy Father’s Day to all who celebrate. For myself, I had steak and eggs this morning. Once I’m done writing my review of The Flash, I’m going to get on the exercise bike for 30 minutes to an hour, then I’m going to get caught up on some work stuff I wasn’t able to finish last week. After that… video games? Going to bed early? Who knows. Tomorrow is going to come too soon.

Okay. Let’s talk about The Flash.

I had a good time. I went in with low expectations to begin with, and I left feeling like I got my money’s worth.

From this point forward, I may talk about spoilers, so if you haven’t seen it yet and you want to go in with fresh eyes, bail out now.

Michael Keaton. Holy smokes, Michael Keaton.

I had no idea how much I would enjoy seeing Michael Keaton as Bruce Wayne/Batman again. I did not know that I wanted to hear that Danny Elfman score play while Batman did cool stuff. Apparently that was something I was hungry for, and I left well fed.

Sasha Calle’s Supergirl was good. Her part was a little bit understated, but Sasha worked with the material she had, and I would definitely watch a whole movie with her as Supergirl.

Ezra Miller. Before I get into their performance, I want to acknowledge that their behavior off screen has been troubling, and I don’t want to focus on the controversy of Ezra Miller themself. I think they fucked up and they need to make amends, if possible. I’m not a fanboy of Ezra Miller. I don’t really know them. Whatever is going on around them is probably complicated, so for purposes of this review, I’m only going to focus on their performance in this movie.

Ezra Miller’s performance was excellent. They brought nuance to both versions of Barry Allen, making them both characters distinct and clear. Ezra Miller’s performance throughout the entire movie was consistent, emotive, and compelling. I loved Michael Keaton in this, and I was impressed with Sasha Calle, but this was Ezra Miller’s movie.

Let’s talk about the special effects. There were two times it stuck out to me as a little bit off. The first was when The Flash went to save the babies falling out of the hospital. They looked a little bit off. The dog also looked a bit off. It was cartoony, but that whole sequence was basically a cartoon, and I was on board with it. For me, it was a good time.

The second time the effects looked off to me was whenever The Flash went into The Chronobowl. We got to see lots of characters, and they looked waxy and computer generated. They were not photorealistic.

I think the producers said that was an intentional artistic choice, and I believe them. When you look at the effects everywhere else in the movie (except the cartoony “save the babies” sequence), the effects are fantastic and photorealistic. Compare the Chronobowl effects to Batman sliding on the freeway while chasing the bank robbers. Ben Affleck’s Batman was a fully rendered special effect, and it looks excellent. When we see Ben Affleck in the Chronobowl, he looks plastic, like an impression of the events that happened in previous movies. I believe it was an artistic choice, and I’m fine with it. It didn’t pull me out.

I liked the explanation of time travel. I’m not sure it’s realistic, but it worked for me as far as explaining the details of the movie, and I was able to groove with it.

I liked getting to see the alternate worlds. I loved getting to see Nic Cage as Superman, fighting a giant spider. I think it’s the only time in the movie I made a sound, and it was unintentional.

The ending bit with George Clooney as Batman made me smile. Of course there would be ramifications to Barry saving his father. It ended the movie on a joke, and I appreciated it, because the movie wasn’t taking itself too seriously, and neither was I.

What else can I say about this movie? I had a good time! I felt some feelings, I had some laughs, and I enjoyed the spectacle. Why wouldn’t I like this movie?

Is it my favorite? Heck no. Am I going to be thinking about it for a long time? Probably not. There are really good movies that I have seen that I don’t think about much, like The Godfather or Citizen Kane. Then there are relatively bad movies that I do find myself thinking about from time to time, like Ashton Kutcher’s Butterfly Effect. So, I might think about The Flash in the future, especially with regards to what it had to say about how time travel works, but I’m not sure that means anything.

Would I recommend friends go out and spend their money to see The Flash?

It depends on the friend. I would not recommend Michael Gallowglas go and see this movie, for example. He doesn’t enjoy movies the same way I do. I would absolutely recommend the movie to Melissa and Chris. It’s a coin flip as to whether Bryanna would enjoy it or not.

I think The Internet is going to continue to be hard on The Flash, mostly because The Internet does not like Eza Miller. I think The Internet is going to criticize The Flash’s special effects and say it is trash because it is not as realistic as they demand, which is Dumb with a capital D.

In summary, and tying this back to my own stuff, The Flash was a light, fun story that didn’t take itself too seriously. It probably won’t leave a lasting impression on the world, and I doubt it’s going to win many awards. These are the same ways I describe The Repossessed Ghost. I think it’s okay for The Flash to exist and just be a fun thing. I feel the same way about The Repossessed Ghost, and I hope other people find light, fun value in it, too.

06/13/23

The Repossessed Ghost — Cover Reveal!

Behold!

In just a couple of weeks, at Baycon 2023, people will be able to buy my book and hold it in their hand.

Look at that cover! Isn’t it beautiful?

Water Dragon Publishing hired the artist that did such an amazing job. I’m so happy with how it came out.

The official release of the book is the middle of July. It will be on Amazon. Formats include digital, hardcover, paperback, and trade paperback.

From this point forward, it’s just a celebration.

Along with this cover reveal, let me provide this shiny link, with which you can order your very own copy direct from the publisher: The Repossessed Ghost.

Everyone that orders from that link before July 4th will get a signed copy. I’m numbering the first 100 copies I sign.

July 4th is when the convention ends and all the pre-orders get shipped. To be clear, if you see me at the convention and buy a book, I’ll sign those, too.

Here is the first time I talked about this novel as The Repossessed Ghost. July 17th, 2014. Almost exactly 9 years later, it will be available everywhere. It’s still hard to believe.

I have talked about this book a lot, and I have to get ready to talk about it some more. If you have any questions, send them my way! I’m hoping to post a vlog before July 1st, which will be a brief reading.

Thank you to everyone that has believed in me and encouraged me on this journey. You mean the world to me.